Can we ever get a break?? We found out two weeks ago that we had miscarried again. We went in for our first appointment (I was about 10 weeks) and like last time there was nothing on the ultrasound. I decided I wanted a D&C this time rather than miscarry naturally. That was done Monday morning. By Monday afternoon I was physically feeling great, but emotionally I was ANGRY! I didn't understand why this was happening to us. So I found a wonderful reproductive
endochronologist in the Chicago area and I emailed him. He wrote back that night and said I should call the next day for an appointment. We went and met with him and he is wonderful! He is going to help us figure out what is going wrong and how we can have a successful pregnancy. We have to do a TON of tests, but I really feel like in order for us to mourn these losses, we need to understand why they are happening. It has been extremely difficult at times and I still get angry often, but I am optimistic we will get some answers. So translation if I just snap at you, probably the hormones (ask Justin). :)
Because of this, we have been trying to stay busy. Even before we found out we had miscarried we wanted to stay busy. It was very difficult to keep our good news to ourselves! Below are some pics from this week and the previous weeks. Hope you enjoy.

Carter the morning of my D&C. It was 4am and he was smiling...I needed photographic proof!

CHEESE!!
Hehehehehe Mama!!
A couple weeks ago we went
rasberry picking at a local farm. It was a lot of fun! At first Justin was not sure he even wanted to go, but he ended up having more fun than he imagined. He honestly probably picked most of the berries. I made 4 big tubs of freezer jam from them, YUM!

The farm.

Over here Dada!

Look at me!

What a ham.

Just a little more...

Carter helping Dada.

How about this one?
My friends have been wonderful since the miscarriage. They have brought over dinners and come over so Carter can play and I can relax. Carson and Carter had A LOT of fun.

We are cool dudes!

Carson and Carter
Here are some leftover pics from Carter's 2nd birthday. He STILL talks about his tractor party...maybe he is hoping I will throw him another one!

The sink Carter got from his playgroup friends...he LOVES it!

His new tractor bedspread from Nana and Papa. This has made it a lot easier to get him into his own bed every night. He yells "tractor bed" whenever we go to sleep.

My attempt at decorations. I was EXHAUSTED from pregnancy and this was about the most I could manage.

Carter opening his sink.

The cake I made for him. He still talks about his tractor cake and carries around the tractor candle and the barn candle.